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[Feb. 8th, 2007|04:11 pm] |
I wanted to be happy.
I'm happy now.
But why does happiness feel so empty? |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 3rd, 2006|12:54 am] |
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What hurts the most is realizing that this is almost like being an alcoholic. There's no easy way out, and you never really get better. |
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| Wish that I can. |
[Oct. 22nd, 2006|11:36 pm] |
Dance like nobody's watching;
Love like you've never been hurt.
Sing like nobody's listening;
Live like it's heaven on earth. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 15th, 2006|04:38 pm] |
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Don't protect me cos I don't need your fucking protection! |
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| Poem - Cutter, why do you cut? |
[Mar. 28th, 2006|08:58 pm] |
Cutter, why do you cut?
You keep yourself closed,
Never open - always shut,
Couldn't you tell me your story or share your pain?
Why do you choose to make scars instead, over and over again?
Cutter, why do you cry?
You often tell me through tears, "I want to die..."
Does it ease your pain - the agony with each slit?
Does harm give you relief as you wound your wrists?
Cutter, please, why cant you quit?
Stop the harm, together we'll work through it.
You always tell me it's what you choose,
That I can't understand because I'm not in your shoes.
As the blood drips down to the ground,
Do you feel better or do you still frown?
With every line scarred across your arm -
The constant reminder that you self harm.
And if they were to see the marks,
The controversy about you will start.
You constantly try to cover what's there
You shut me out, and it's not fair.
My dearest friend, when will this cease?
I want to help you find your peace.
When you're depressed, come to me - not to the knife.
Don't let it take control of you, and take your life.
Let me be your last resort.
Instead of hurting or cutting, I'll bring you comfort.
Unlike cutting which relieve you with pain,
I'll be your barrier, to protect you from them.
If you get the urge, or have a crave,
When your yearning to cut, just be brave,
Let me be your aid, let me be your outlet,
When everyone and everything else makes you upset.
When you've nowhere to run, and you seek the blade,
When you feel alone, or perhaps even afraid,
When the blade is pressed against your skin, never leaving your hand,
Lay the knife down, love, I know you can.
Cutter, my friend, why did you cut?
You kept yourself closed and always shut...
Thanks for letting me be the one, whom you can depend,
Your constant reminder to stop harming and start loving, your best friend. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|09:03 pm] |
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One day, I'll look back on who I am now and wonder who I was. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|08:05 pm] |
I got my tongue pierced today.
For all the lies I've told. |
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| Poem - Locked Away |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|04:53 pm] |
Locked Away
And she's locked away,
In a place faraway.
No one hears her,
Nor do they acknowledge her tears.
She's blinded by lies,
And unseeing eyes.
She believes their stories,
And pretends not to cry.
Like a doll she's played with,
As beautiful as myth,
But no one tells her she's pretty,
No, they tell her she's a mockery.
She's easy to push around,
And yet she seldom frowns.
Yes, there's a smile plastered on her angel face,
She could be bitter, but that's not the case.
She's sweet as sugar,
But she's only a girl.
So tonight when they laugh, mock and snicker...
You can be sure to hear her whisper,
"This world is beautiful, but it's too sad."
And she's disappear from her friends,
Forever locked away in a faraway land.
A random poem I wrote last night. |
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| Poem - Goodbye |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|04:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Qian Nian Zhi Lian - F.I.R | ] |
goodbye
Don't cry for me, because I'll be okay,
Don't try to persuade me, because I can't stay,
I've told you over and over, but I'll say it once more,
Don't cry, be strong, I loved you to the core.
I'm sorry I'm weak - that I left this way,
I'm sorry you wouldn't see me every other day..
I know that I am wrong, that I shouldn't have,
But now, I've to take all my secrets, hopes and dreams to my grave..
I'm sorry, dear brothers, but there's nothing you could've done,
Thanks for making our house feel like a home.
I'm sorry, my sisters, that I departed so early,
But I promise we'll be best friends for all eternalty.
Please don't hold back, fight or deny,
That it's time to say goodbye. |
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| Holy Crap |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|02:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  nauseated | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | So Sick - Ne-Yo | ] |
I think I've lost my appetite. |
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| Poem - Silent Screams |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|10:07 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | All about us - t.A.T.u | ] |
I wrote a poem today.
silent screams
She glanced at the white tiled floors...
A drop of crimson appeared, but still she wanted more,
Her hand was trembling as she lowered the blade,
Her eyes gazing onto the scars she made,
The tears weren't stopping - she wanted this life to end.
Her heart was painful - she wanted to live again,
The sound of her heart grew louder in her ears,
She remembered looking at the shattered mirrors,
How no one would hear, even if she screamed with all her might,
She remembered thinking to herself,
The color was beautiful against the stark white.
I wanted to convey so much in this poem, but I felt as though I failed miserably. I wanted to show how much she didn't want to cut, yet felt compelled to do so. So much I tried to do, but ended up with so little.
p/s About the title.. Well, lets just say I've never been good at titles. |
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| NejiHina Avatars |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|05:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
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because you
are weak |
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i fear for you |
3.
i will protect you |
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so far away |
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we are not
that different |
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so lost & afraid |
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nii-san is coming
to save you |
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lost innocence |
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fear |
10.
fly |
Guess which one's my favourite?
Anyway, leave a comment if you're going to use them. =D |
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| Here I am |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|12:21 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Numb - Linkin Park | ] |
I have dance club meeting tomorrow.. I can't believe I'm still not yet asleep... Credits to the holidays. I hope I develop insomnia, at least that would be fun, rather than sitting in front of the computer in an arse-numbingly hard chair. I'd be glad when school reopens.
Well, until next time. |
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